Why is that so challenging for me (and I'm sure others?)
Why is finding something good, rewarding or joyful in all parts of my day, regardless of what I'm doing, so difficult and at times, elusive?
I blame so much of that on my circumstance - For example....I have a very good job. I work for a good company, I have good benefits, I make good money. Bottom line - I don't like what I do - at all. Many people would look at me with confusion saying, you are so good at what you do (I'm sure there are plenty who would disagree), but down deep in my heart - I don't enjoy it, have zero interest in what I do for "my job". But Joy lies in the heart not in the happenstance.
For years I've convinced myself that the possibility of having a job I love - you know....Love what you do and DO what you love, seemed such a foreign concept to me. I am still afraid to venture out and try and find gainful employment doing something I love - because I'm afraid I will come to hate it if I do it for a job! I can't shake the feeling that work should not be something I don't enjoy, well, because it's "work".
Fast forward - I've been allowing myself to make a list of jobs that I would LOVE and I've been looking at what training is needed - another scary thought for this almost 49 year old woman - going back to school - egads!
So I'm going to take a couple of short courses in a couple of areas - some to learn new things, other to hone existing talents.
I'm going to be adventurous and take a baby step out of the comfort of my boat. After all, as some of you have heard said - How can you walk on water if you never get out of the boat? For now...I'll have my life preserver and floaty wings on. After all...it's not the Bearing Sea I'm stepping into...it's just a little puddle - or so it seems!
Have a great day all!